Yesterday, after a wonderful week in Florida with my hubby, I came home to find that our oldest daughter is changing careers.  She has taken a job that is, granted, more in her field, but I am not so sure it is the best move for her.  Nevertheless, she IS 25, and can make her own decisions.  And she has made this one.  Only problem is, it means that she is going to be moving out of the house, and though I know she has to go at some point, we are so close that I feel like a part of me is leaving.

Oh, I don't begrudge her her freedom.  She has more than earned it.  I am just sad to see her go.  And on top of that, the other daughter, who graduated in the spring, is throwing out resumes right and left, and is going out of town tomorrow to job hunt.  So, I may not be losing only one child, but BOTH of them, ad basically the same time.  And I am not really sure how I feel about that.

I guess I know now how my own Mom felt when I moved out of the house.  I was the last one to go, since I was the baby.  I didn't migrate far, and at this point, neither are my daughters.  But, even if they were right here in town, I would feel the same.

We were married for five years before we had any children.  This was by choice.  But, then we did have children, and we have never regretted waiting.  It has kept us both young.  And now, they are grown, and beginning to stretch their own wings.  That is the way it is supposed to be, but it doesn't make it any easier. 

I am very happy for my daughter, but at the same time, I am a little upset at her, too.  I hope that is normal.  I don't know if it is or not, because I have never been at this point before.  Of course, as they have grown up, I came to a lot of points that I had never been to before, and we all got through those.  So, I suppose we will get through this one, too.

Oh well, life goes on.  It is just going to be differentfrom now on.  I guess I will do what I always do.....adjust and move on.  It won't be easy, but we will manage.